recover from a depressive episode with me :) I stayed in my bedroom for 6 whole days - healing vlog

I failed my first year of med school and I stayed in my room for an entire year. The only time I went out was to give my exams last month. Now I’ve passed it and my classes start on Monday and I have no fucking idea how to integrate into society again. I recently discovered your channel and idk why but watching your videos just makes me feel less shitty. Kinda comforting to know there are more people like me

I'm notorious for rotting in my bed/room days on end so it was very comforting seeing that someone does the same sometimes. Just some advice: Ebb and flow. Feel all the feels and let it go. If it takes a few days to feel okay, then so be it! One thing for certain is that the feelings dont last forever. Love you and your videos once again <3

ur content is so relatable it’s rly nice to see cuz everyone seems to have their life together😭

Gurl, I am 22 as well and have literally nothing figured out as well so that part spoke to my soul lmao, Also I recently was rejected in one of my internship interviews and I sulked for a week straight lol All i wanted to say is that it is normal to feel that way and whoever is reading this comment I want you to know that it does get better and you will have amaaazing opportunities for ya❤ Also Via congratulations for 10k, you have grown so fast and you derserve the world I honestly feel like seeing a bestie in another part of the world so love you 💟 And amazing video as always🎉

I'm glad you're recovering, depressive episodes are hard. Sending love to my comfort girl always <333

Girl I’m 28 and have nothing in my life figured out and have been severely depressed, your videos are so uplifting and comforting though 💕

My university days were some of my worst. And this is coming from someone who was at uni back in 2009-2012 so I've had some time to think about it since. I was dealing with depression already before uni so then it just made it worse. I was stuck in this circle of not having the energy to study, to feeling guilty because of it and putting it off even more. It was a nightmare. People who don't know what depression feels like will never get it. My mom used to call me lazy and wouldn't acknowledge it when I would say I'm depressed. I don't know how I managed to finish uni and keep half of my sanity intact, but I would advise anyone who goes through it to seek help. It's very difficult to go through it on your own.

I remember how depressed I was at around that age too because of the job-searching, getting rejected for a lot of times. I studied abroad and was looking for a job in this country, so knowing that I have a 'deadline' (only had 3 months after graduating to find a job, or else you'll have to go back to your country) made it all so much worse. So, just know that you're not alone! Also, I can vouch that talking to yourself DOES help with your mental health :) I have a really low self-esteem and I'm really bad at the self-love thing. I often criticize myself when I did/said something stupid that day, and ended up getting really down because of it. I realized that I should stop doing that, so whenever I start to get angry at myself, or frustrated about the bad things that happened that day, I would talk to myself, trying to comfort myself in a third-person point of view way, like I'm trying to comfort a friend. I know some people might think it's really weird/ stupid, but it helps me A LOT. Ever since I started doing that, I blame myself less and less, and started to be a more positive person now (and journaling definitely helps too!). And I find that talking to myself helps me sort out my thoughts much better, because even though it's just you talking to yourself, it kind of feels like you're having a discussion with someone. I think this is also part of the reason of why I can spend time with just myself for a long time haha. Anyways, thank you for sharing with us! I love your videos, and it amazes me how eloquent you are when speaking out your thoughts (because I was so far from that when I was 22 lol). I hope things has gotten better for you☘ : )

I got fired because of shitty hr and upper management, and I've been stuck in my room for a year and six months now. I've developed anxiety about applying for jobs because I'm scared of what my old company might say if they're contacted. I've cried every night and feel incredibly alone. Thankfully, I've started to push myself to get out there and apply for some jobs. Please keep me in your thoughts!

This is so real, helpful and puts me in a good mood seeing I'm not alone with all these struggles. Can't thank you enough. Hope you're always healthy and happy in future 🫡

bestie this vlog was SO real- ugh sorry you had that week :( I’ve literally been feeling the same over the past week, I graduate in the summer and have nooo idea what comes next- which has literally sent me into so much confusion and sadness, I feel you a lot and I’m sending a lot of love, just remember ur not alone, take it day by day and keep going❤️❤️❤️

I wish i had ‘episodes’ i’ve always just had it. Finally after 5 years, i am being admitted to the psychiatric hospital… it’s scary, but i’m sick, i need help. I hope you are doing well <3 no new year or christmas for me lol

Me, also rotting in bed whilst watching this. Thanks for another great video, Via!💓

We’re in this era of social media where you can say things like “my 6 day depressive episode” and nobody will bat an eye. A depressive episode is 2 weeks or more and can last weeks or months, and I think it’s important to make this distinction. I just wanted to post this comment as a reminder for younger folks so that if they find themselves in a depressive episode, they aren’t harsh on themselves for not being able to girlboss their way out if it in a week. I sat with this comment for a few minutes to make sure I wanted to post it. My goal is not to be overly critical, but I think this subject is an example of how mental health awareness gets skewed by social media. For someone who is depressed, learning the facts is powerful in treating and overcoming the symptoms and episodes. Thanks 💙

Hate to say twinsies 👯‍♀️ but oml samee, I literally went out this afternoon for the first time in six days 🕺🏽 also just want to say I’m mostly (almost always) a silent watcher but you seem like a really cool person and your videos always make my day 🩷 so thank you and remember to be patient with yourself 🫶🏽

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" Matthew 11:28-30. May God heal us and give us the peace and strength to keep going..

That’s really help me to understand it’s okay to feel up and down you can’t just be up all the time

Major depression has nearly destroyed my life the past 4-5 yrs. Three things seem to help- 1. Rule of ONE. For one week choose one thing you can do daily that will make it a success. Keep it simple, but engaging. 2. Don’t apologize for a week. See how you feel. (Variation of be kind to self) 3. Help someone else. Start of each convo with “How’s things with you?” It’s one step at a time then two steps back. Ten forward, then fall of a cliff. But like I tell fellow alcoholics… a slip up doesn’t have to turn into a relapse.

the spring break thing is so relatable.. i havent done anything either n i barely left my room 😭😭 we'll get through this

These comments give me so much courage😭 to see people go through this same thing is so comforting