week in my life while i recover from a major mental breakdown

when you said "i want to go out, i want to do things etc but i don't have the want" made PERFECT sense. i FELT this so much 💔 love you so much girly

i’m doing my school exams rn, it’s so difficult for me to even walk into the school, i just start to feel so closed off from everything but at the same time so exposed and vulnerable. you talking about your anxiety in videos is so helpful, i feel safe and normal. thank you :)

i’m just now realizing I put “day 2” twice oopsyyyyy

i’m sorry you’ve had a tough couple weeks lately , mental health sucks sometimes and i relate to this so much. i had the same exact thing with meds happen to me. i felt “numb” as you described it. things didn’t feel the same and i felt like shit and just worthless almost. And you are not alone as you probably know!!! also restaurants are also such a weird trigger for me 🙏 i just hate eating around people and loud environments are so overwhelming for me. anyways ty for everything you do, you’re really such an inspiration for young people going through this. you got this <33

I totally understand what you’re going through. You were making total sense to me. Sending hugs to you ❤️ I’m here if you want to talk.

I did lexapro for the first time ever on meds etc, and felt the same. I had two grandparents pass away and felt NOTHING. Tell your doctor. I was open and honest and they did change my prescription. They changed to Prozac. It HAS helped my anxiety and ambition. You’re doing the best you can. Sometimes all you can do is shower or move from the bed to the couch. That’s alright. 🥰🖤 baby steps hun

Once I started my anti depressants my skin has been the worst ever in my life, so it could be connected!! Take care of yourself sister 💚

i’ve never related to something more. so sorry you’ve been feeling this way lately, i know exactly how it feels and it sucks so much to have all these things you want to do but also feel like you just can’t. thanks for posting stuff like this, it was honestly inspiring to hear you say you were feeling a lot better at the end of the week. hope it keeps going up from here!💖💖

I have anxiety stemming from emetophobia too. I got put on lexapro and I am feeling the exact same way with my boyfriend even though I know I love him very much and it scares me but I’m scared to get off of them. I haven’t had a panic attack in about a year but I have been having trouble still with restaurants and shopping and things I used to be able to do. You are very much not alone! I hope you find something that works for you and you start to feel better 💕

My anxiety is largely due to emetophobia also! Sorry I’m so late to this video but it always makes me feel warm and fuzzy when I find someone that makes me feel less alone. I’m 30 and it’s gotten much better in the last couple of years. The right meds and therapy make a world of difference.

Love you hun. Humans are strange beings. We all need some help sometimes. Always pause and take a second when you need. Speak to that voice in your head and talk yourself through things. Be forgiving, especially to yourself. Hope all is better a little bit for you. 💖 I feel like this a lot sometimes. Sometimes I confuse myself cause I’m like yes let’s go out!!! Then when I get out I have anxiety the whole time because of the 1283 things I’m thinking could go wrong. I’m 22 and dont drive because I just feel like I’m jumping of a cliff. I go to work and come home and don’t really talk to anyone but my boyfriend, and I wish I had the friends I use to but at the same time it’s soooo much for me to handle. It’s hard for me to handle myself. I feel like I’d be a flaky mess that’s a negative Nancy to people when it’s really just my anxiety. So in my head I’m automatically a bad friend/ I don’t care/ I’m selfish. I don’t know. I started tearing up during your intro cause resonate with that so much. I have the want, but I don’t have the want. Thank you for sharing this, I feel a lot less alone with how I feel. I distance myself from everyone and everything for no reason but my own thoughts. Appreciate you✨ I keep editing this, but never feel like you have to share a ton girlie, even a little can really help even one person. Your boyfriend was funny when he was filming for you💗 I’m glad you have him when in need of comfort. Always reach out to your support system. People LOVE you. People want the BEST for you. Always. Always always.

It makes so much sense. I was literally diagnosed with depression and anxiety this week and yes before I didn’t know exactly what was wrong but now looking back my anxiety was often triggered and I didn’t/still don’t know how to cope with that so it depressed me and in those days they get really tough and dark and that’s where I am now. I appreciate you doing these videos it’s actually one of the reasons I sought out help.

You need to take care of yourself. Mental illness is real and nothing to be ashamed of. Get the help you need and get better. You have a huge life to live. Prayers your way.

Hey i take medicine too and i had the numb fase. The advice that i will give you is to speak to the person who is following you (like your psychiatrist). They will tell you if it’s normal and you should just wait, that’s what they told me and they were right, or if you should change medicine. Don’t stop taking them with out telling no one. Love you, we just got to stay strong❤️

I’ve had emetophobia my whole life so I feel you! You’re not alone! 🖤

I was on Zoloft for a few months. The only thing I noticed was the negative affects, too. It was so hard because you hope and want it to work because psych meds can be terrifying. But the decreased libido part can really take a toll on your relationship. Just wanted to let you know that healing isn’t linear, it’s a constant up and down cycle. Just remember, that the person you were this time last year would be SO PROUD of you because hey, you made it through. I know it’s hard to see it this way but every day is a new day that you woke up and opened your eyes, and that’s a gift. Love ya, gf. You have a whole army behind you ❤️

lmao the look at 12:24

Medication is always extremely hard to adapt to! When I first started my antidepressants I was all over the place, and felt so numb. I was also on acne meds that made me nauseous 24/7 :( but you’re doing so good, and you have such good self motivation. It’s so hard to get out of a funk, but you’re so real about it ❤️

when i hear people going through the exact same things i go through, it makes me feel so... normal. in the best way. i hope everything works out for you soon, i'm right here with you in this boat.

when I tell you I love this video so much, obviously not happy you’re feeling this way or anyone else idk it’s like I feel you guys are such genuine people so I’m wishing nothing but the best for you guys. It’s the little things in life when people just share that it’s okay to not be okay and to pick up and continue life even when it’s hard, ugh omg words cannot express the comfort I feel ugh love you all.