Mental Health Awareness Month - Suicide Awareness Video 2

I lost 3 friends to suicide. The last one, my buddy Chad, gave me a hug like like no one had ever hugged me before Christmas night in 2012. He was going through a lot at the time. We talked for a while, but I mostly listened. I left for home around1:30am hugged him and told him that my phone is on and he could call me anytime. 2 days later he was gone. For months I felt as though I didn't do enough, but in reality his mind was made up. See you on the other side Chado. 🤙🏼

The mother saying she couldn’t imagine the trauma of the officers is unbelievable “I only saw it once!” She’s a strong lady

I’m a Firefighter/EMT who’s been on the job for a good few years now. I felt it somehow significant to note that every suicide my department has seen in the past few years I can recall has been a minor. Always graphic, always scarring our responders. We have such a mental health crisis in this country. So many of the calls we respond to are mental health related in some way and it is alarming.

We found my son Nick on Christmas Eve 2021 in his car in a remote desert area with a self inflicted gunshot to his temple. He had been there for 3 days while we looked for him. His siblings and I will never be able to forget that day. Please, if you are considering suicide, remember the consequences you leave behind. I cry everyday for Nick. So does his sisters and brother. Find help. Don't leave us alone without you. Much love. Keep in mind is all, this is a place for anyone who has a comment. This is just my personal input.

I love how important and special everyone’s lives are when they’re gone. Yet when they’re here, they’re treated like absolute garbage. From their employers, To the police, to even their own families. Life only seems to matter when it’s taken. So crazy.

I feel like this video was meant to be found from me on this very day. Today 4 years ago January 20th 2019 my daughter sadly committed suicide. She hasn't been herself for a week before she committed. I tried to talk to her to see if she's okay, all she said was "I love you dad". After that she hasn't come home, all she left was a note. I tried finding her everywhere, and found her shoes lying on the beach. I called the police and was claimed she committed suicide. I blame myself to this day for not being there for her when she needed me.

I've attempted twice and I want to apologize to the dispatcher and the officer who found me. I'm want to say sorry for the pain I caused them, but I promise to them that I will do everything I can to live.

lost one of my good buddies to suicide 01/12/22 one day before my birthday. talked to him for about an hour before he did it, just bullshitting about life and promised me we’d sip on a couple beers that weekend. an hour later he’s gone, and i never would’ve known how much pain he was in that night on the phone with him. you really just never know what someone’s going through mentally, always be kind. i love you all🖤

I found my son dead in November of 2015. I remember wailing uncontrollably and just grabbing his limp body shaking him trying to wake him up before going into mom mode and starting CPR. I haven’t slept through a night since. I wake up screaming and shaking. I can’t imagine what this woman felt. Losing a child is something no one should ever experience…but losing a child to suicide is something I can’t even begin to comprehend, and I don’t even want to. Suicide is the most tragic way to lose a loved one. Knowing they felt so lost is just unbearable. Knowing your child was in such emotional torment that death was the only way they saw to possibly escape the pain is just incredible heartbreaking. I wish I could just wrap my arms around this woman like my mother did me when they took my son away in an ambulance after pronouncing him dead. I swear to the Lord above that if my mom, my husband, and 2 emergency workers hadn’t been holding me back when they loaded my sweet boy on a gurney and took him, I would have clung to my son forever. They had to pry him out of my arms. I knew that once I let go of him, I would never again hold him. Months later I talked to one of the medics that helped pull me off my sons body and he told me he quit his job a few weeks later because he was just torn apart by my screams and sobs and that he thought about me everyday after that. He had only been on the job for a few months and had never seen anything too sad before that day. He just cried and hugged me and told me he never knew the real power of a mothers love until it took 4 grown adults using their full strength to pull me ( a petite 110 pound woman) away from my son. He just told me over and over how sorry he was. Pray for the medics, cops, and other Emergency personnel in this country folks. They see things no one ever should.

This mama is so strong. I’ve always thought this since I’ve found her TikTok but I believe it even more now. Not only losing her son, but finding him, and the state his body was in, and also discussing it/reliving it makes my heart ache more for her. How calm she was keeping herself that night too…💔

There is nothing that will ever compare to the "sound of a mother's loss." I've heard it from my own mother, and that is a soul-wrenching sound that I'll never forget.

I lost my brother to suicide in 2019. I watched him hanging from the home cameras. Before I knew what I was watching, I told my mom to go check on him to see what he was doing. He was in the garage. Lights were shut off. I will never forget what I saw. What I heard. I’ll never be the same. We will never be the same. Rip Big Bro 💚

I lost my father to suicide when I was 6 years old, I saw him the day before he did it he had the biggest smile on his face and he sat down with me and told me how proud he was of me, how much he loved me and how I would accomplish everything I wanted in life. Being 6 I took all this at face value the next day he was gone, if only then I knew what I know how about how much pain he was In I would have stopped him told him how much I loved him, I’ve lost a couple of friends to suicide over the years also, some days are a lot harder then others I’ve seen my best friend die of an overdose in front of me he died in my arms as I was screaming at him to wake up and he never did. I never considered suicide and never would, though I suffer from depression, PTSD anxiety and panic disorder. Only 22 years old and I’ve lost 8 family members, and 20+friends to overdoses, car crashes, suicides ect.. shit is hard to comprehend but please know there will always be better days, we gotta have bad days to have good ones. Lots of love always and never be afraid to ask for help. I finally got a therapist and it saved my life, I was at a very dark time with all the lose and been told I was a failure and a fuck up my whole life didn’t help but I know I have a purpose and I do everything in honor of my dad for he was the strongest man I’ve ever met

I like how nobody wants to even mention the societal causes of it, they always make it seem like it's just the person's own fault and just in their own head, but it's really caused by the society they're in and noone wants to admit it

I looked up his age/story while this video was playing and instantly starting crying. I can’t believe this. 14 years old. I went through hell back then when I was the same age and now as a 25 year old I’m glad I chose to stay. I just wish he would have stayed. So absolutely depressing.

4:02 this hits hard with the moms walking their babies in strollers in the background. RIP to all who are victims of their own hand, may their families find peace

Never told my family but I saved a girl from suicide, she called me over the phone crying and wanting to end it all, she’s a year younger than me,she’s like a little sister to me, it was an intense 45 minutes but i managed to calm her down, and she’s okay, shes doing a lot better

As a grown man this made me shed tears. I couldn’t imagine being a first responder on the scene. At the end of the day we can all have our own opinions on them but we gotta respect them.

I’m a police officer in a mid sized city. We’ve lost 5 officers in the last three years to suicide. RIP fellas

Watching this on duty. To all the citizens out there we are here for you, despite how we are depicted. We don’t always get it right but my heart goes out to people who go through these tragedies