talking about my depression while feeling depressed | How I Cope

Astrological energies are SUPER SUPER dense atm.. I've been feeling depressed AF recently as well.. so are a lot of people I know.. we got this 💪

Im honestly so sick and tired of "doing the work", I've gotten to the point where I'm beginning to realize that I just need to accept myself for who I am and how I am. I think in constantly feeling like I have to be "better", be "kinder", be "more enlightened" that I am completely neglecting the pretty cool person I already am. I am sweet, I am friendly, I am supportive and loving. And thats good enough. I dont have to "be better" or do "more". I think in this community people strive to be more of and more than that we dont stop to realize there is nothing wrong with how we are right now. Spirit is telling me to stop looking left and right at what other people are doing or saying or telling others to do. That I have my own intuition and instincts and that they are correct for me. With that being said, I'm no longer looking to spiritual "gururs" and influencers on what my journey should feel or look like. We have our own journeys and only we know our own path.

Can confirm I have been rotting for 4 months, and what contributes to it is feeling the need to rush through it, and the thought of "Why cant I just get over this depression? Everyone else does!" And I really needed to hear this video. Just recently started watching your journey and I love it here. Your videos give me space to just be human. Thank you!

What I’m coming to realise is the biggest factor to depression and anxiety is a lack of belonging. The hyper independence of our first world countries is so damaging to our primitive biological needs. The happiest countries in the world are the ones that have big communities.

i owe so much of my healing and life perspective over the past ~6 years to you. i’m so grateful we exist at the same time, and that you put the time and energy into being vulnerable and a messenger of true kindness. i can say with complete honesty that you make the world a better place

I haven’t ever really commented on any creator’s videos before, but I just want to say I found you a few months ago and I have been watching your videos nonstop ever since. After stepping away from l my religious upbringing I’ve experienced so much anxiety but seeing your experiences and hearing your approach to life has brought such a sense of calm into my life. Thank you for creating the way that you do and for being such a light on this platform ❤ it means more than you know

"Life isn't that personal." Yes.

Dear Hitomi, I would like to nicely point out that “narcissistic” has been used in a very inflationary way recently. I am a psychologist and we are very careful with this term in our field, as it is mainly used to describe abnormal personality structures. Narcissism describes a personality disorder that belongs to the dark triad and the term narcissistic refers to symptoms of this disorder that are associated with a lack of empathy, manipulation and megalomania. It has absolutely nothing to do with healthy egoism, such as self-care or thoughts and actions that put one's own needs first. I hope I have provided more understanding in this regard. Only love <3

february was interesting it started great but then i just felt uncomfortable, insecure, unsocial and strange. then my period started and my emotions amd stress kicked up a notch. im relieved this month has passed so i can get back to baseline

Hey i’m very thankful that you shared this part of life, makes me feel like maybe we’re all experiencing life and we are not alone. Most importantly that is okay to not always be our best self, sadness, depression and anxiety is sadly a part of many lives including mine and yours and maybe whoever is reading, but i know it’ll get better <3 lots of love

Thank you for sharing Hitomi. I have been going through a cycle of death and grief for the past 3 months. I found myself thinking the same thoughts.. I also find that talking about it, expressing and creating helps me flow through the motions..

What you share about not wanting to be seen in the muck resonates with me so hard. Thank you so much for sharing, this is what I was needing rn. It is so comforting to hear this reaffirmation that I don’t need to “leave” or “fix” these feelings right away and to have patience and compassion with myself.

Your vulnerability is wonderful. Your energy may be low, but compared to your last videos I feel like your authenticity is now present more than before, because you're being true to yourself even through these difficult and heavy feelings. We love you Hitomi, you're a special soul, helping the world raise its consciusness, and your content is a precious gift <3

Thank you for reminding us that it is not always that deep :) we're just experiencing life for the first time!

it's so soothing and affirming to hear that I am not the only one who's been rotting for the past month :( thank you Hitomi for sharing your truth, it makes me feel less alone..

i loved the part where you said our personalities are part of our spirits. for so long i wanted to change who i am, because i am really quiet naturally, and people always pick up on this and get on me for it. this helps me realize that its just naturally who i am, i didnt get to choose it, and its ok to be me

Hitomi, I have no family, no friends, I am basically a single mom struggling to get away from their addict father. Trying to save our relationship I lost everyone and everything along the way. Now I have nothing. I feel so alone, but watching your videos makes me feels less alone. I feel like you are my only friend sometimes and I don't know where I would be without your videos. Thank you for existing in the harsh world. I love you!!!

“A full spectrum of emotions is available to you in this now moment. You are not just a sad person. You are capable of deep joy and gratitude and rapture. And those feelings will come back around.” This statement made me cry. Thank you Hitomi. Your vulnerability blessed my spirit today. I needed to hear so much of what you said. Your words have brought me back to my hope and reminded me that I can accept myself exactly as I am. Even at the bottom of the well. I love you♥️

this could not have been more timely for me. I'm at the bottom of the well for the first time in a while as well. family illness and grief is hitting hard and I'm witnessing it for the first time with acceptance. having you voice your newfound ability to watch the depression in your mind with arms folded is so encouraging that I can keep doing the same. Thank you Hitomi, sending you so much love

Thank you so much for your existence online. I am isolated & recluse and I've been feeling really depressed for years, coming back to your videos is always a way for me to reconnect with my sacredness and feeding my soul with gentle attention instead of being harsh and judgmental towards things I cannot control. You feel like a guardian angel ✨