my depression and anxiety story | mental health month

“So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the LORD your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 NLT) Remember you're not alone and don't be afraid to seek help. But Madi, you look so beautiful, happy, and healthy!

This was the most relatable thing I have ever listened to. Around 4 months ago, this random anxiety with no particular trigger completely consumed my life and brought a depression into my life as well. It came out of NOWHERE. I have never heard of a story like mine. I have a psychiatrist appointment in a few days and I am going to discuss possible medication because I’ve been trying without it and it is just not working. I feel like I need some assistance to crawl out of this hole. Something to lower my anxiety to a point where coping skills actually help. My mind set sounds a lot like how yours was. I’ll ruminate and overthink the point of my life and everything around me. It’s awful and I don’t understand why this feeling took over. I’m really nervous to try medication, but I really hope it helps me even just a little. Thank you for being so open, it helps so many people.

This anxiety thoooooo. The HARDEST thing to get over. Like thinking you can heal it. Fix it. Idk how still

This brought me to tears, I can relate so much to this. I literally just went through a phase like this a while ago. Everyday I felt like I would be stuck like that forever, that I wasn’t going to get out of that hole. But luckily my parents helped me out and I asked God to help me, to guide me out of that hole I was stuck in. I was stuck in that hole for about a month. I didn’t want to eat and I felt so skinny, my irrational thoughts literally consumed me and I would get panic attacks. But long story short, my faith has strengthened so much and everyday I remind myself that God is with me, he isn’t letting go. Everything will be okay. But thank you for sharing your story! I thought I was the only one that had felt that way. I’m so glad you made a YouTube channel 💗 You inspire me to be the best person I can be and I am so thankful for that. I love you, you are such a great person ❤️

So vulnerable! Thank you for sharing your journey.

The same exact thing happened to me. Our stories are SO similar.

This sounds incredibly similar to what I’ve been going through for the past 9 months. It all started with what doctors “guess” was a bad gastritis attack one night out of the blue, then suddenly I was a completely different person. I started having severe panic attacks that I’ve never experienced before and I lost my appetite for 2 weeks. I remember taking an entire afternoon to finish a breakfast sandwich. I started getting severe health anxiety and depression so bad - crying almost every night for a month straight - that I really thought I was going crazy. I’m still not 100% back to my old self but I’m taking it day by day and finding reprieve where I can. Thank you for sharing your story.

Girl. You inspired me to become a nurse and get my life together. I totally understand what it’s like to live through something hard. I would have never guessed you lived through something like that too. Thank you for being you .

Madi, it is unreal how much our stories are the same. Im sorry you are suffering this pain but i know exactly how you feel. You are so beautiful and even more beautiful for sharing your story. You are amazing and amazing for pursuing your nursing education/career even through all this. You really are an inspiration and I am struggling through the same thing currently every day for the last 15-20 years, since I was 12 years old and Im 28 next month. And to see you pursing nursing gives me confidence that if you can do it I can do it too. Much love to you girl

Madi, thank you for being vulnerable & sharing your story. You are extremely strong & brave, please know that! I’ve definitely had a moment in time where everything was too much for sure, it’s not the best thing to experience either.... I’ll tell you my story one day... But I love you, you’re amazing and I’m so glad you were able to overcome this and be the incredible person you are today 🤍

thank you so much for sharing your story. you are going to help so many people not feel alone. i have struggled with anxiety my whole entire life and have gone through some very similar rough patches such as not eating, throwing up, racing heart all the time. it is so very important to get help when it consumes you. you are so strong and i’m very happy you are where you are today <3

you are so very strong❤️ this hits home because i experienced something similar when i went away for college but i eventually transferred home as well. this was so touching😢 thank you for your story madi!! you inspire me so much💕

you are such an amazing person, you’re such a big inspiration so to many people, always remember that you ARE loved🥰🥰

“i feel so tired being in pain” - best to describe what depression does 😢

Madi, thank you for sharing your story. I am a mental health professional and work in higher education, this is a common occurrence and it is necessary for continued advocacy. I process medical withdrawals and the primary reason is usually psychological. Mental wellness is still a necessary conversation among college students. Again, thank you 🙏🏽

I got diagnosed with depression 2 years ago when I was a few months away from graduating from HS. I was going through a really hard time (mentally and physically), I was missing my friends (that went to school with me) I was struggling in school, I was ignored in school, I was losing interest in things I didn’t find joy in anymore, not wanting to get out of bed, not wanting get on the bus, I was fake smiling all the time, coping with change, my gym teacher treated me poorly, I’d get anxious in class at the time, and I was having suicidal thoughts it was that bad. I also didn’t have that many people to talk to because I was scared to talk about it with my friends and I didn’t have a therapist at the time which is something I wish I did. Now I’m finding ways to cope with it and not fall into that state again

you're such a genuine beautiful person Madison! thanks for sharing with us, mental awareness is so important, so many people struggle with mental health.

Thank you for sharing your story. I loved the part when you talked about "little Madi" and the dreams she had. You are amazing and strong!

As someone who has got over anxiety disorder, I can give you the following tips: (by got over I mean I only get some light symptoms in my body that do not happen often and when they do they are over quickly. I dont get panic attacks anymore) 1. Go to treatment and acknowledge that you have the disorder for the rest of your llife and don't deny it. Anxiety disorder doen't go away. It stays for life, acknowleging it will noly help you because you will accept it and it will help you to stop fearing the symptoms (they are what causes the anxiety basically, you fear from the symptoms). 2. Learn to psychlogically contain the symptoms. Don't fear of them. Acknowlege that you have to bear them and that's what will make them ease eventually. Treat them like you treat some pain. For example, I suffer from chronic back pain and one day I thought to myself "the back pain is worse than anxiety symptoms so why do I fear them?" I will think of them like any other unpleasant feeling. After some time you will get used to them and they will not bother you as they will come in softer levels since you will not fear them anymore. If they still too hard to handle, than take a pill of clonex for a couple of days. But you will learn to cope without the pills eventually or just take once in a long while which is really OK. 3. the best way to overcome anxiety is psychologically. CBT is a psychological method but also you need to analyze withyourself or with a therapiist why you fear what you fear and you will need to change you perception over it and work on yourself and teach yourself that you have nothing top fear from. My back pain example is a psychological trick to contain the symptoms of anxiety 4. Don't avoid situations that cause your anxiety, face it. Dont escape the problem, cope with it and beat it It can get much better.

You are so beautiful and strong! Thank you for sharing your personal story. I know you’re going to help so many people! 💜