3 months of depression, documented

Even while stressed depressed lemon zest you continue to rock that flawless shampoo commercial hair

Feeling numb is the worst, today I cried for no reason and you know what crying is much better than not feeling anything.

The thing about hurrying is an American mentality. Yesterday I saw there was a line behind me at self checkout but for once I decided I didn’t need to rush to finish as quick as possible and could do the task calmly. It’s not rude to slow down, it’s about giving weight and energy to the right things. Despite what American society tells you, you don’t need to be exceptional at anything, you can just vibe your whole life and it will be a great one! ~lessons from an Italian expat

When I search up videos of people dealing with depression to try to feel not so alone, I end up feeling even more alone. Even other people with depression seem happier than me. People can see my depression on my face and my body language and they treat me differently because of it. I try to hide it and it still comes through. I hardly have the energy and motivation to fake a smile. I feel so alone.

I cried so hard while watching this video. I genuinely know how BAAAD it feels to feel empty. During the peak of my depression, it felt so scary and disgusting to wake up feeling empty, fall asleep at night still feeling empty, and going through the day and facing people with a smile, ALL while still feeling empty. I'm just really really happy that you have found even a glimpse of light in that dark cave you are currently in, Kaiti. I also thought before that there is no end in what I'm feeling.. but I'm proud to say that I am here, after almost 2 years.. present and alive. Not fully happy, not fully at peace, but still breathing and existing. Love you so much, my Kaiti Yoo. 💗

So incredibly proud of you Kaiti for being brave and vulnerable. Hope you feel better soon❤️‍🩹🫂

This is 100% how i felt the last few years. Went from a job i worked overtime becauase i was passionate about it to barely able to get anything at all done in a day. Cycle of exhaustion, guilt, shame, fear

It all sucks. I hate my job, I hate my life, no one wants to hangout, my family hates me, I have no time for myself I'm just a wage slave still struggling to get by. I do everything alone. I go outside everyday but it reminds me of everything I don't have. Seeing so many people enjoying themselves with tons of friends and then there's me, just some nobody no one cares about who's been completely left behind. I can relate to you so hard. Whatever days off I do have, I don't even get out of bed. My life is a complete regrettable waste. I wish I was never born.

she is one of the strongest. the fact she took a risk and shared this with us, filmed it, and realize what she was going through. Take care, lots of support <3

I relate to this video so much. The pressure and guilt to work but you just can't. It's so hard to explain because life goes on but you're just paralyzed and can't move along with it so you feel worse as you miss out on things, events, deadlines... Despite we've been improving as a society in terms of raising awareness about it, this is a disease that's impossible to truly understand unless you experience it. So glad you decided to make a video about it. And so happy that treatment is working for you. We got this

The scariest thing is that you seem so okay. People can not see what happens within a person if it is not an obvious wound. So much healing has to come and it will. My dad died on this Christmas Day, I was only 14. My mum’s had serious mental health problems and has been unstable my entire life. I have been struggling so much and people can’t see it. It makes you feel helpless and invisible. I just want to let anyone out there know that you will get through this. You can and will. Even though you have a lot to get through, the light is always lurking somewhere in the dark, you just have to find it. Thank you Kaiti, for being vulnerable and sharing your experiences, hopefully everyone can grow and support each other. Smile at someone next time you see them, you never know how much they need it. ☀️

Been there girl. I was also superwoman until I got depressed and realized I was a normal person. Gives you a lot more empathy!

I can’t describe how timely finding your video was. I struggle with anxiety, am starting lexipro, and I’m going to start therapy (for the third time) on Thursday. As an asian christian woman who is also led by creativity, you have given me a glimpse of hope to carry on down the same paths you are taking. This season will not be forever. Thank you for sharing your journey and here’s to getting healthier and better!

Seasonal depression is the worst, it definitely got to me back when I thought it was *me* that was the problem. It never is. Trust me, you'll get better if you keep bettering yourself. Keep away from crap foods, get sun and fresh air everyday, keep moving around and try not to sit still for long amounts of time. I find the easiest exercise for me personally is going up and down stairs, even if in short bursts, but each person has something that works for them. Don't start with a lot, even 5 minutes of being outside in the sun a day, and 2 minutes of exercise, is good enough at first. A lot of people think depression comes from bad experiences and traumatic events, when it doesn't, not directly. Such events are catalysts that start you on your spiraling path, but life choices, even the smallest ones, are what determine whether you're able to detour from it. Whether life events tear you down, or make you stronger, is entirely dependent on the choices you make. The path to beating depression is not a short one, it takes months of small consistent steps to get better. But it does get better. I believe in you! I believe in all of you!

as someone who has depression, struggling and fighting tooth and nail each day, hearing that "roots grow deepest in the winters" literally made me cry. thank you.

Im kinda late but as a fellow depresso girl i gotta say this video hit where it hurt and healed where it hit all at once LMAO- but really tho, kaiti, thank you so much for being so incredibly vulnerable about this (and even finding the energy/motivation/discipline/consistency/idk frog to do this video) take all the time you need to fall back in love with what you do (and even if you don't, that's ok too) we will all keep patiently waiting for you no matter how long it takes :)

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your journey with us. It's beautiful to see how you're growing in character and faith this season. I'll be praying that you will be healed from depression, this season will end.

Hi dear friends. It's been two years since this video. I'm now living a life my depressed self could never have imagined. I have experienced firsthand the hopeful, shocking relief of how vastly one and one's life can change for the better. I felt the need to make a video updating you all — /watch?v=V0q47GPjTGk&t=40s&ab_channel=KaitiYoo f you’re someone who’s still waiting, who feels stuck, who thinks it’ll never get better… I made something for you. Take heart.

You are so brave to open up about this. We are here for you and happy to have you here

November 2022 was really a point where everyone was on their breaking point(it seems), including me. Some major endings happened in my life too- relationship, and a new career. I have been suffering for the past 6 months. Only in May that I started to feel better. All the best and all the power to you Kaiti. Remember to take care of yourself. Take your meds, eat healthy and go for long hot girl walks. Snapping out of an overthinking spiral is really important to me. Also dancing or some form of expressing yourself can help❤